i've been sitting here like an hour

thoughts running trough my head

but not one of them makes me feel okay......  not even a little better.

but this is the best that i can do....

sitting here all alone

writing down whatever comes in my head in this yellow piece of paper hoping it could help me to make me feel better

but nonsense

i keep lying to my self!!

i keep trying to feel okay , but i was never okay!!

always trying to  make something new

but was never trying to forget the old ones.

i picked up some turnips ........   dont really know what to do with it.....

throwing it up and down.... throwing and catching it all over again

hoping a bunch brilliant idea to came up in my head

but none of them has even try to cross my head.

why??

because i could never forget all of you......

because i could never forget RaveRush.....

because the steps that i take without them seems so empty and hard.

because the words that i say wont make a big lovely laugh that you make for me...

because i just love you all so much...... :'(